Friday, December 17, 2010

All I Ever Get for Christmas is Blue

My 'happy lamp' that hubby bought for me last year.
I don't mean to sound like a Debbie Downer, but I've been in such a funk over the last week or two that I decided to blog about it. I have been a huge slacker lately (in mind, body and blogging) and I know I normally post a recipe on Friday (and I promise I will soon---I do have several things up my sleeve).

I wanted to do a little PSA about Seasonal Affective Disorder, also known as SAD. I personally have been diagnosed with this years ago by a doctor and it's really no wonder why I feel a certain way from the time we change the clocks back right after Halloween until about January or February. Unfortunately, I usually feel my worst during December--the darkest month of the year. I honestly wish Christmas was celebrated in the summer because I feel like I tend not be as jolly as I wish I could be. I don't know why Christmas is a bit difficult for me. I have wonderful childhood memories of Christmas, but as I grew older I became more depressed around this time of year. I feel guilty because it's the birth of my Lord and Savior, and now as a Mom, I feel the pressure and expectations to make Christmas as wonderful for my son, James, as it was for me.

Maybe it's just the commercialism and craziness that comes out during this season. Also the fact that the stores start pushing the season earlier and earlier each year. More importantly, it bothers me that my heart is not prepared for Christmas, spiritually. I know I have a responsibility to change my attitude, and also to be mindful of what I'm feeding my body (and soul). I have been doing very poorly in these areas.

I have found some articles related to SAD that may help. I know I am out of control with the sugar issue and I know it exacerbates depression symptoms and unfortunately, that's where I'm at right now.

Things I'm learning that may help:
Light Therapy (at least 10,000 lux)
Vitamin D
B-12 and other B vitamins
Fish Oil (Omega-3's)
Theanine (which comes from green tea)
Getting your Thyroid checked
St. John's Wort and SAMe (these may interact with antidepressants! Check with your doc first)
Getting plenty of rest (I know, easier said than done)
Exercise (I was doing this, but was sick most of November and haven't been able to get back into it)
Balanced Diet (as always.....sigh)

Struggling with SAD has made me more compassionate to those that suffer in mind and body during the holidays. I believe Jesus is the Light of the World. Maybe that's why we celebrate Christmas during the darkest month of the year. Even our darkness is not dark to Him. I take comfort in that.


kait said...

Beautiful post Leah, I agree and relate. I think many people struggle around this time of year, whether it be a memory, lonliness, spiritually.

Leah the Foodie said...

Thanks Kait! Very it doesn't help that the culture gets in our face and pressures us to spend more, do more, and look 'perfect' all the while.

Greta Wicks said...

i know people say this all the time, but you really should listen to pastor rock's sermon (online) from this past sunday! SOOOOO good and he talks about this very thing. luv you ladies!